"It's time to go..."
Jul. 19th, 2011 09:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
darcencielIt seems almost silly to post something like this seeing as my rock n' roll obsession days are long past, but my favorite rock star died this past weekend.
I could go on about how important X was to me when I was younger or how their songs got me through a really deep, dark place in my life. But I guess those days are past too, and all I can say now is that when I heard the news, I cried. I always said I couldn't understand fans who would cry when their favorite musician or actor passed away. They didn't know him, right? It wasn't personal...he was just some person on the television.
But I think I do understand now; for me, Taiji wasn't just someone on the television. He was an inspiration. He went through so much in his short life: alcoholism, drug addiction, homelessness, health problems, divorce, the loss of his friends also to suicide or illness - and yet he was brilliant. He was a one-of-a-kind musician, an amazingly talented bassist, someone who was the very definition of perseverance through hardship. I always looked to his story not as a story of defeat but one of hope.
Now that he's gone, I still do, because I think the thing that Taiji taught me and other X fans is that no matter how many times you fall down, as long as you get up, you will continue to be an inspiration. The fact that he just couldn't get back up quickly enough in the end doesn't negate all of that. Perhaps it was just his time.
So this is a tribute to a man who played an integral part of shaping who I am today, although he never knew me. I think he knew how much he meant to his fans, and I think his fans meant a lot to him as well. He was that kind of guy.
RIP Taiji.
Voice of faith, I'm starting to realize
Now my eyes can see
I have gone so far
I'm feeling breath of life
And I'm looking for love to reach
Someone I want to touch deep inside
Light shines on my sight of doubt
Don't be afraid
Move forward one step...
Voiceless screaming
Calling to me inside of my heart
Voiceless screaming
Now is the time I got to speak out
Voiceless screaming
Pain of the past still hurts me inside
Knocking on my soul's door
I climb the stairs that lead me to Heaven.
I could go on about how important X was to me when I was younger or how their songs got me through a really deep, dark place in my life. But I guess those days are past too, and all I can say now is that when I heard the news, I cried. I always said I couldn't understand fans who would cry when their favorite musician or actor passed away. They didn't know him, right? It wasn't personal...he was just some person on the television.
But I think I do understand now; for me, Taiji wasn't just someone on the television. He was an inspiration. He went through so much in his short life: alcoholism, drug addiction, homelessness, health problems, divorce, the loss of his friends also to suicide or illness - and yet he was brilliant. He was a one-of-a-kind musician, an amazingly talented bassist, someone who was the very definition of perseverance through hardship. I always looked to his story not as a story of defeat but one of hope.
Now that he's gone, I still do, because I think the thing that Taiji taught me and other X fans is that no matter how many times you fall down, as long as you get up, you will continue to be an inspiration. The fact that he just couldn't get back up quickly enough in the end doesn't negate all of that. Perhaps it was just his time.
So this is a tribute to a man who played an integral part of shaping who I am today, although he never knew me. I think he knew how much he meant to his fans, and I think his fans meant a lot to him as well. He was that kind of guy.
RIP Taiji.
Voice of faith, I'm starting to realize
Now my eyes can see
I have gone so far
I'm feeling breath of life
And I'm looking for love to reach
Someone I want to touch deep inside
Light shines on my sight of doubt
Don't be afraid
Move forward one step...
Voiceless screaming
Calling to me inside of my heart
Voiceless screaming
Now is the time I got to speak out
Voiceless screaming
Pain of the past still hurts me inside
Knocking on my soul's door
I climb the stairs that lead me to Heaven.
